Today:
-Wet to chiropractor. He actually released my neck this time, but it idn’t make me feel really, really good. Just sort of better. I have been dreaming of the deep relaxation and feeling good that has happened before after an adjustment, but didn’t today. In fact, I feel rather empty. However, I feel really glad to have not cried today, and I only got very sad once. That’s compared to crying most of yesterday from the pain and how it made me unable to deal with normal situations in life (interrupting phone calls, missing some TV programs…)
-I’vebeen working on rolling my shoulders bac, I hpe that soon it becomes an unconscious behavior and my shoulders sit at their normal spots. I also have been trying to make desks and chairs and things more ergonomicsbut being rather petite, this is hard for me.
-I have been reading the Snellen chart off and on, after yawning just now I cleared the 7 line, then the 4 line. So I am reading 2/4 in reasonably bright artificial light. Now, I need to improve thquality of the reading, or at least read 4 more consistently. the double vision is quite bothersome, so I should start doing eyepatch swings again. I do draw with eyepatch, of course.
-I do a heated eye bag before I go to sleep. I heat it up, put it on my eyes while lying in bed, and just relax and look at the black. If my mind wanders, I tell myself to start over. After awhile, I take it off my eyes and go to sleep. The whole purpose of this is to relax my eyes before I go to sleep, so that I can wake up with more refreshed eyes. I don’t know how well that has been working. Palming can be tough for me because of my shoulders.
-I did about 15 minutes of yoga. It was pretty nice. I think if I’d done it longer I would have released more, but that’s all right. I will do it again soon.
-Today has been WOG. I did homework, went to the chiropractor’s, and went to class WOG. There were some things in class I couldn’t see, and I noticed it was getting blurrier near the end (losing interest in the topic, maybe/) But I could clear it okay. I feel like I see a lot more than I’m supposed to given what my supposed prescription is. My roommate and I stood back from her computer and she noted some things on it she couldn’tread, and and I said, “well, I can read that.” She said, “well, you’re less blind than me” and I said, “No, that can’t be” (as I’ve asked her before she is between -2 and -3, whereas I’m almost -8). She then asked if I was farsighted. That’s not it either, it’s just that things that I’m accustomed t, i can clear okay, and especially outside. So really my prescription means a lot less than it used to.
I may put on glasses tonight, so that I can work more easily (my desire to program goes down with no glasses. It’s one thing to play on my computer or write in my blog, but really having to discern whether I’ve missed a semicolon and that’s my program won’t compile? that’s a bit tougher.)
I came out of a stairwell, and a friend of mine was sitting nearby, but I didn’t recognize him. He said hello, seeing me instantly. I made a confused sound. He laughed, said I was blind without my glasses, and I should get contacts. I told him I couldn’t because my eyes change so rapidly, and I kept around like 8 pairs of glasses, but I couldn’t do that with contacts. There were some jokes made about bifocals, octofocals, and things like that. It really annoys me that he says that I’m blind without them. I am not blind, I just have blurrier vision especially when it’s darker (inside a poorly lit building in the late afternoon)./
Desires:
-Getting a nice relaxing night of sleep. I’ve put on extra pillow on my bed, hope that it will reduce the neck pain I experience in the morning.
-Cheer up, keep a positive attitude. I’ve been really depressed lately. Maybe some running or something tomorrow will help with that. I have racquetball on Thursday, swimming on Saturday.
-being more organized. This is just to reduce stress and be relaxed about every taks that needs doing. I’m employing the Getting Things Done method, and hoping that that will help meget things done in a more timely manner so that I have more time to relax, and that I am more relaxed while doing work. We’ll see about this, I am just now taking baby steps.
-neck stretches
-Snellen chart as needed, palming or eye bag as needed.